December is a pain!

December 14, 2009

Ok, well up until today everything seems…well, sort of complicated. I mean Christmas is just around the corner and that means getting presents for everyone that matters to me in my life. The thing is I am kind of short on green (u know what I mean) then probably my biggest problem NEW YEARS!!! EH-MAGAWD!!! That means new outfit ,hairstyle, shoes, purse, and my new years resolution! Agg what am I going to do??? I have to act quickly since I only have a few more weeks left and a few weeks will be here faster than lighting just like the year went by. The good news is that I passed both my classes with flying colors I actually did better that I thought. I got an “A” on web design and a “B” in business English yay! I am soo happy I was worried for a minute about my grades but at the end God was their for me like he always is and helped me thorough everything! I love you God!!!!! . One thing for sure Im getting old and tired of the same routine everyday! I guess I could have it worst like others do but I need something new in my life or “someone” the point is I need to learn how to be patient. Well I have been nothing but patient for soo long already I think Im running out I need to re-fuel myself! How do u ask? Well I ask God to help me again. He is the onlyone who can and the only one I trust. I think I need time away from the same people and places. I need to do something different and meet new people. I wish I was a carefree person again, but even I know that’s impossible to achive especially in times like these when I have soo much to worry about not only spiritually, but socially, and materially. Spiritually being my top priority. If God blesses me with another year I only whish I will be a better person firstly, in church and my family. I only hope thing get a little better for me this new year. School is defiantly going to be more stressful since I decided to take five classes next semester to try and get the most classes out of the way. Yes I know its going to be hard trying to balance school and work at the same time but I trust in the one person who can do it all and to whom nothing is impossible in this world yup u guessed it GOD! My father! GOD! I need a best friend someone I can share my insecurities with, someone who will be their for me , who I can cry with and laugh with , someone I can trust. I need to keep my eyes open for that person. It would be nice to throw in a boyfriend In their somewhere  I suppose I could change something I my life you know to perk it up maybe talk to people I don’t know just randomly or mingle with a few guys 